The den of order and chaos

Year in review and pre-view

2009-01-22T14:13:00.003-06:00

Neglected my blog again, shame on me.
Its a New Year! The first month is almost gone, its crazy I tell you. So with all New Years there is some reflection on the old year and goals for the new year. So here we go...
Stuff from the old year:

Entered the regional art competion that is hosted at Augie. Niether piece made it past the first round of jurying.
Got to see the inside of House on the Hill. Painted it and came to hate some of its celings. Why my supervisors thought it was a good idea to have me paint the room with the hightest celing is beyond me.
Passed all my classes for my Junior year.
Unfortunately because of financial reasons I could not return for my Senior year. So no graduating for me this year.
Bought a new battery for my old laptop. Its now a laptop again and not a small, awkward desktop.
Got a new laptop after the 1Gb stick of RAM went kaput in the old laptop.
I now can replace just about anything in a laptop.
Learned how to jump start a car and replace the battery in one.
Got a new bike and thus got into some sort of shape riding it to and from work every day.
Started looking for a job in October. Still haven't found one.
Ended the year kicking my friends butts in Wii bowling while totally smashed and with my pants tied together.

New year looking forward toos and things that I hope will happen:

Hopefully will get a job before too much longer.
Will finally move out of the house and into an apartment with Blake. *crosses fingers*
Never having to put up with living with Becca again. Love you Bec, but your not easy to live with.
Go to Cornerstone this summer.
Go to Flatcon in the fall and maybe go to a bigger game con.
Make some new good memories.
Hang out with friends over the summer.
Maybe run some game over the summer. Probably not Deadlands again, but hopefully my paranormal campaign that I've been kicking around for a while.
Enter the regional art competition again. Maybe I'll make it past the first round of jurying.

Well thats that. Notice how I don't promiss to update more often. I've learned that doesn't work. ;)

No teeth

2008-11-02T12:40:00.003-06:00

So I mentioned in my last post that I was going to get my wisdom teeth pulled. Well on Tuesday I went to the dentist and I got several shots of Novocaine and the dentist went to work removing teeth. I didn't even feel it when the teeth came out. I just felt lots of pressure and heard my teeth make some weird noises. I got to see the 5 teeth that were pulled. It was kind of strange seeing them sitting on the table-thingy when about an hour earlier they were in my mouth. Mom kept them. The holes are pretty much all healed now. They are just a bit tender. The one on the lower left however isn't healing as quickly. So its more than tender but its manageable with asprin. So everything is all good.

Flatcon report

2008-10-06T10:43:00.002-05:00

This past weekend I went to Flatcon, so here is the report on the fun things I did.

Friday: Day 1
Friday afternoon Kat, Adam and I drove down to Bloomington. We arrived at the convention center got our buttons (we had buttons this year!) and free raffle tickets. We looked at the raffle items and Adam and I put our tickets in. Adam won one of the lots, I didn't, oh well. We took a look at the games that people were demoing and decided to sign up for the Exalted demo, since none of us have ever really played a White Wolf game before. Untill the demo started we took a game from Travis's Big Table of Games and played that. I can't remember the name of the game but you played a farmer and had to develope your land, get a better house, get animals, and such. Was fun but not a game I think I would ever own. Then we got some food, came back and found the table we would be playing at. I must say that I'm not too impressed with Exalted. The world, backstory and setting were interesting, but the mechanics and game itself were not too thrilling. I really don't want to be this all powerfull being and then the most chalenging thing I fight is a boulder and a log. Now the idea of "limit breaking" is interesting but I really don't want to play a charecter, much less in a game, were some could limit break and go around raping people. Not my idea of fun. That ended Friday.

Saturday: Day 2
Saturday Adam and Kat were entered in the Warhammer 40k doubles tournament. This made me try out games and by myself for most of the day. In the morning I played Petsbury, a game similar to Monopoly but your building up a petstore. It was fun and entertaining. After that I watched the Warhammer thing for a bit. That was interesting but it seems really compicated. After lunch Adam and Kat went back to the tournament and I went to go and try to play this one game. Unfortunatly not enough people signed up for it. So I ended up playing a bunch of short games with this one local gaming group. We played Jungle Speed, Incan Gold, and Three Dragon Ante. I had played Incan Gold before and that is always a fun game to play. The other 2 were lots of fun as well. I ended up picking up Three Dragon Ante from one of the venders, it was that much fun. I'm going to look and perhaps pick up the other 2 at some point, just becuase they are so much fun. By then the tournament was done and we all went to dinner. Adam and Kat didn't win anything but they had fun. After dinner I bought a couple of games, Horus and Three Dragon Ante. Adam and Kat bought Arkham Horror and an expansion for it. We all also bought a d30 or 2. Kat and I went half and half on a scoop of dice. I taught Adam and Kat how to play 3 Dragon Ante and that was fun. We decided that it would be fun to play for pennies at some point with it. We ended the night by playing Shadows Over Camelot with Travis and some of his friends. Shadows is a game I really want to get, I would have bought it this weekend but the 2 vendors who had it sold out. This time we played with the expansion which I had never done before. It was fun. Made the game a bit harder which is fun.

Sunday: The last day
Sunday we spent the morning playing Desperado, a minitures shoot-em-up game. That was a whole lot of fun. I lasted for till near the end. Kat made till the very end and was finally killed with a stick of dynamite. It was lots of fun. We played a little animal stacking game while we waited for the raffle. Neither Kat nor I won anything this time. But oh well, the money all went to Relay for Life so it was all good. I also bought and made another foam sword, I have 3 now. Now Iris, Lilly, and I can all have one big melee. Fun fun. We went out and had tasty lunch with Travis and Adam's mother before we headed back out on the road. I love eating tasty, messy tacos.

And that was my weekend. The return trip was uneventful, except for me getting attacked by a large bug at a rest stop. Next update around homecomeing and about many things.

We are in space!

2008-09-30T15:29:00.002-05:00

Saturday night gaming has become a bit interesting. We lost one player to his libido. No, I'm not joking. This player lives in Iowa City but comes in during the weekends to play with us. Now it would be understand able if he said he didn't want to make the drive any more. But he will still be coming into the area, not as often as every weekend, but will instead spend the entire time with his "sugar mamma". *sigh* So we are now short a couple of players.
Well getting away from our lack of players, since we have so few (just me, Adam, Kat, Louis, and Blake on occasion) we are not necessarily sticking to one game. Call of Cthulhu and the ninja thing have been put on hold for the time being and we have gone over to a Savage Worlds space game. Louis is the pilot, captain and owner of our spaceship, Kat is the ship's doctor, and I am the mechanic. It's fun. Our doctor is afraid of blood and I am neurotic about keeping the engine room clean. We do shipping runs, some legal and some not so, across the galaxy. More updates on that after we play it again.

"Thats decy there." "Isnt that my skull?" "No, thats decay. We have to drill your face off."

2008-09-30T14:55:00.005-05:00

So I went to the dentist today. First time in at least 8 or 9 years. I decided that it was time to go back, especially since my wisdom teeth have on occasion bothered me, to the point where it hurts to chew. So off to the dentist I went. The dentist looked around my mouth with the little mirror, poked at a dark spot with the poky thing. As I figured, there isn't enough room in my mouth for my wisdom teeth. So I go back in October to get 5 teeth pulled. Yes, I said 5 teeth. Four wisdom teeth and one extra tooth that's in the back. So thats going to be fun. There will be another update on this after it happens.

Oh, and if anyone gets the reference in the title you get a cookie.

Of apples and things

2008-09-23T14:06:00.002-05:00

Sunday the Physics club went apple picking. That was fun times. I got to climb a tree, eat apples (pick them too), ride a tractor and race my friend across very muddy ground. He won. We picked 76 pounds of apples. So many apples. I took about 7lbs home with me. Tasty tasty.
Afterward we had our first boat building meeting. Since homecoming is approaching fast we decided to get started building the boat right away. Monday was our first building day. We decided on a design very similar to last year's, a V-bottom boat. We are just going to modify a few things to make it more stable and less likely to get soggy. Next building day is Wednesday, tomorrow. Whooo!

And now for something completely different. Recently the Deadlands campaign I was in ended. The GM and some of the players (me for one) were getting a little tired of it. Our GM is going to try a ninja thing with the Savage Worlds system next. For now, until that starts we are playing Call of Cthulhu. We have got one session in so far and that was pretty fun. I think I'm going to have to see if I can run a one shot for the Gamers club at Augie. I can see much sanity loss in the future. hehe
But back to the ninja thing. I created my ninja character and I think its going to be much fun to play. All my attacks and defense powers are going to be randomized since I have a "Bag of Tricks" type thing. And my character believes that all trees are secretly plotting against her. So much fun, more updates on that when it starts.

Next order of random. The first weekend of October I will be attending the game convention, Flatcon in Bloomington. I went last year and had alot of fun, so I decided to go back this year. Whoo, more games! I've been trying to get up some intrest in it at the Gamers club, but so far I don't think anyone there is that interested in going. So sad. Once it is done and I am back there shall be a full report.

An update after two long weekends

2008-09-09T17:16:00.002-05:00

Finally updating my poor mistreated blog. Recently I have been to two family get together type events. One was a 50th wedding anniversary, the other a wedding reception. The first was on my dad's side of the family. The Orwitz side of the family trekked up to Rockford for Aunt Eunice and Uncle Vince (Bink)'s 50th anniversary. I had never realized till then just how big that side of my family is. Not only is my grandma one of 6, but many of them have 6 or 7 children. There are 7 McGuirers (Bink and Eunice's children) and all of them are tall and brawny. This is the smallest I've felt in a long time. But that was a great weekend. Full of lots of food, family, euker playing (I can't spell it, that one card game), and lots of beer drinking for those of age. We also all invaded this local hotel. I'm not sure they were ready for the 30+ of us that stayed there.

The second event was this past weekend. My cousin Mike got married in New York the previous weekend (the one where I went to Rockford). Since this is my mom's side of the family, not every one could make it to New York since the family is all in the Chicagoland area. So a second reception was held in my Uncles' bar and resterant. That was fun. Only one day instead of whole weekend. More good food, family and dancing. I took Blake to this one. He had fun and my family was glad to see him again.

Since it was a one day thing, that ment I got to spend the rest of the weekend with Blake which was fun. Friday night we made fun of the freshmen who came to Phil's (Blake's roommate) party. And yet again I got into a drunken discussion about the double slit expriment and the nature of reality with Blake's old roommate. I have no idea why I get into physics discussions while drunk, but it has happened at least twice now that I remember. The next night we had a movie night with Blake's roommates and watched "No Country for old men". That was the stupidest movie I've seen since watching "Dragon Wars". I will tell you not to waste your money on renting it. It has no endding and you can't tell what is going for the entirety of the movie. The rest of the weekend whent well and I had lots of fun.

Hopefully I'll update my neglected blog again with in the next month.

Whoo, Supervillains

2008-04-03T20:32:00.002-05:00

Ok, so last Friday I ran my first game of Necessary Evil. I must say that it was fun. The supervillains that everyone came up with are pretty funny too. We have the Evil Wondertwins (Double Trouble), The Blackwidow (guess what superhero she is like), a gadgeteer (he makes cool things), someone who can easily hit people with semi-trucks, and the funniest ever, The Conquistador (a servitor of the Catholic church, he gives small pox to people). I'm trying to come up with a good adventure to run them through tomorrow, hopefully one that will take more than one night to play through. But its fun. I also need to find the mook rules, since I apparently don't know them. >.> Oops. More updates on the game later. Now there are tacos calling my name.

Update on art

2008-02-15T17:27:00.002-06:00

So I got my notification today to see if either of my works made it past preliminary jurying. Neither of my works were chosen to move on to the final jurying. Oh well, at least I entered. Maybe I'll try again next year and see what happens.

And now for something completely different: I have borrowed Necessary Evil from my friend and have been reading it. Its an rpg where aliens trick all the superheros into a trap and kill them and then take over the world and now the supervillians must save the world. I'm hooked. I will defiantly be running a one-shot game of this. If that goes well, hell, I might just run a campaign. I've always been told that I would run a good superheros game, we'll see how I do running a supervillians game. hehe

Art stuff

2008-01-29T10:27:00.000-06:00

First I will begin by answering the question in the last comment, about my poor laptop. In a previous post I described the death of my laptop's harddrive. Well the laptop lives again with a harddrive that is 2 years older than it is. Thank goodness for friends with dead laptops but a good harddrive. So it runs and does what I need and want it to do.

And now on the the real story. Evey year the Rock Island Fine Arts Exhibition takes place in the Art Gallery. Anyone can enter if they live withing 150 miles of the Quad Cities. For the past two years I have worked to set the exhibit up, call people to remind them to enter, tear down the exhibit and so on. This year I did something crazy. I entered the contest myself. Insanity of insanity. Now I hope that at least one of my pieces makes it past the preliminary jurying phase. Once past that I would be almost assured of a place in the exhibit, at that point we only turn stuff down if there is no more room. Then there is the final jurying that picks the winners of the show. I don't that I'll get picked for that, but I really do hope that at least one of my pieces makes it into the show. I will update you regularly about the progress of the show.

The first piece, the one above, is Bright Dreams, Dark Nightmares. The second one, on the left, is Baby Dragon.

Suplize!!

2008-01-10T14:06:00.000-06:00

It's a post!! Poor blog has been neglected. And thus I will make a random post about random things.
Random thing one: I got a fuzzy blanket for Christmas. It is fuzzy and good.
Random thing two: I have begun to play another rpg called Rippers. Fun stuff. Werewolves and vampires and other fun stuff running around Victorian England.
Random thing three: In the Deadlands game the entire party got taken down by the Boise Horror. Oh that was fun. Ryan's character got taken over and killed himself, that had to be the best and most satisfying death ever. Well it could have been more satisfying if I killed him but oh well. So the storyline now jumps forward 5 years and everything is just about to go to complete hell, the Junkyard Alliance has fallen apart and Combine has taken over. Now our new characters have to find a way to survive in this new world and then find a way to go back in time and kill the Boise Horror and fix things. Oh this will be fun.
Hmmm I think that will be enough random stuff for now. Maybe there will be more later. Maybe something less random.

stuff

2007-11-20T14:12:00.000-06:00

I am an official Augie student again. Yay!!! Now to see how living at home and doing school stuff will work out.
In other news, my harddrive decided to do an impression of a car with no muffler several weeks back. It then died after a sucessful impression. So I am sans a computer of my own with internet. I can use my mother's mac when I need to but...*ick*. I really dislike macs. *I want my right click back. But at least I'm not going through internet withdrawl. So updates will be even more infrequent then before. So I don't think yall will notice much.
Yup, thats about it here.

Exiting stuff

2007-09-17T09:16:00.000-05:00

Just the other day I saw a trailer for a movie that to me looks like the best movie I will see this year. What is this movie you say? Well, it is Across the Universe, a musical with, wait for it,...BEATLES SONGS!!!! Upon seeing this I of course had to get the soundtrack, even though I have all the songs in the original. ;) I have to say I'm impressed. The songs are all sung very well and sound just as good as when they are sung by the Beatles. I will defiantly be going to see the movie when it comes out. I've already got Blake saying that he will take me to see it when he comes back home (finally). Yay!! *runs off singing Beatles songs*

The Apocalypse has been put on hold. Please wait.

2007-08-27T22:36:00.000-05:00

For those of you who wanted to know how my Deadlands campaign was going here is the post you have been waiting for.
My game is effectively dead. All but 2 of my players are out of town, if not out of the country by now. And in addition to that I won't ever allow one of my friends to ever be a player in any RPG I may run in the future. I included him because he is my friend and I thought it would be enjoyable to sit down and have fun with him and my other friends. But apparently he is off the opinion, and made it perfectly clear to me, that his DS is more important and more fun than anything he could do with his friends. I even asked and told him not to bring his DS to gaming again and yet he did. He was a total ass when we gamed as well. I know I'm not the best GM, I'm still learning, and I may never be that good of a GM. But I will NOT tolerate someone at my table being rude and a complete dick.
I may start my game up again once school starts. There might be some people who will be interested and appreciate the fact that I will run a game for them.

Words!!

2007-08-13T12:38:00.000-05:00

Words, words, words. A collection of letters and sounds that we give meaning too. Without us giving meaning to these collections of letters they would mean nothing. The meanings of words constantly is changing. So when someone can't see past one meaning of a word to see a different meaning of the word in a fantasy setting, this irks me. The word that started this rant is the word daemon, and how it is used in the context of the book The Golden Compass. The meaning of this word at this time means a creature of evil. In the book it is used to mean the animal manifestation of a person's soul. Now hard can it be to put aside one meaning/understanding of a word to enjoy a work of fiction? Its not as if someone is telling you that this is what the word should mean, they are just saying that in this imaginary world this is what it means. People who can't understand this drive me crazy.
Oi. Enough ranting for now.

Updates from the game

2007-07-26T12:39:00.000-05:00

Now for updates from my game.
The Group:
Blake: creepy Psyker, has mind powers e.g. mind reading, memory maker,...ect
Zach: Junker
Jake: crazy, schizo, tainted Junker
Louis: thief-type, hunts for parts for Zach
John: Law dog
Joey: Doomsayer
Previously:
The group encountered a pair of witch hunters (they hunt down and kill Junkers) that had taken over a town and had kill the towns Junker and where going to kill his apprentice. The group successfully took down the witch hunters and freed the apprentice. They were given free lodgings for the night since they freed the town. The group was on the trail of a Junker named Mira who was heading for Junkyard.
Last session:
The group left town and headed toward Junkyard and their quarry. Zach uses the Net (home of the tech spirits) to send a message to Doc Schwartz, one of the heads of Junkyard and a fellow Junker, about the witch hunters and a warning about their quarry. Doc answers the message thanking Zach for the warning and asking for help in a matter that has come up in the city. The group reaches Junkyard and agrees to help Doc. Doc in turn will use his contacts to see what he can find out about Mira. The group is contacted about the job of clearing out Salem Towers apartment building. The group accepts the job and then is contacted by a third party about this job. Apparently all isn't what it seems. ;) We ended the session with the party ready to enter the towers.
Next session: exploring the towers and getting rid of the "spooks" that are haunting it.

Hey look stuff

2007-07-20T10:54:00.000-05:00

I'm super excited. Why you ask? Well its simple. On December 7th an awesome movie is going to come out, The Golden Compass. It is one of my favorite books and now its going to be a movie. I'm happy. So far everything I've seen for it has looked good. I can't wait, its going to be awesomeness. I've even played around on the website for the movie and that was fun. Hehe, I have a daemon now too. *points to bottom of page*
And now on a different note, I have started to GM my first game. It's quite an interesting experience to be sitting on the other side of the screen. So far only one person has died and had to create a new character. Vogel ran away from the first battle screaming TPK. Granted he and everyone else had been turned into children at that point. But he could still fight. Oh well. If he keeps running away I'll have something interesting happen to him. Well thats it for now. I promise to post more often.

Stuff!!!

2007-06-20T00:31:00.000-05:00

Oh man, I saw the space station and the shuttle tonight in the sky. It was awesomeness. I'm so glad Jake called and reminded me, otherwise I would have forgot. But yes awesomeness. If you missed it tonight you can see it again tomorrow, like around 9:50 or so. All the info about it can be found here.
Ok, now I must sleep. Night night.

And we all fail now...

2007-05-24T22:22:00.000-05:00

I've screwed up again. This time worse than any other. I have managed to fail the same class not once but twice. And now my GPA is so low that I can't come back fall term. This means that I can't go on Asian term. I've messed up big time. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm just not good at anything it seems. I'm not even very good at my major, physics. I'm mediocre at best. I haven't even figured out how to tell my mother. Thats not going to be fun. Good lord, what am I going to do now? I'm such a failure and a probably a disappointment too. Everyone thinks I'm so smart and good at stuff and I'm not. I can't even pass a class the second time around. Why the hell am I even here, I can't do anything. I'm just nothing, I just take up space. I'm sorry I shouldn't be ranting anymore and I have no excuse. I'm sorry, I'll quit now.

Easter the Second

2007-04-09T18:08:00.000-05:00

And now for the report from Easter with the Orwitz's. It was pretty good. We ended up going out for brunch/lunch. So no good grandma food that I was so looking forward too. After that we went back to grandma and grandpa's and hung out and digested for awhile. Then I came back here to my room and got some reading done. Other than church in the morning and that, Easter was pretty uneventful. Although at church we did get to sing with brass for the service. God I love singing with brass and/or strings. Its so fun.

And now for a sadder note. My Grandpa Straight (step-mom's father) had a heart attack on Friday. I don't know how he is doing, but the last I heard was that he was going to have open heart surgery. This is especially scary since he is 84 years old and could easily die on the table. I don't want to have to lose one of my grandparents. I hope and pray that he gets better.

Easter the First

2007-04-02T21:24:00.000-05:00

Sunday I went over to the Straight's house (stepmom's family) for an early Easter dinner thing. The food was wonderful as always. Grandma makes the best food. We also celebrated my nephew Carter's birthday. *he's 4 now* I saw the movie Happy Feet while I was there. Couldn't hear all of it since there were many people talking but meh. It was a cute movie, but when it began I thought it was going to go in one direction but the movie surprised me. I won't put any spoilers here in case one or more of my readers haven't seen it yet, but I will say that the movie seemed to turn into something that was trying to teach a lesson and came close to preaching at it's audience. Other than that it was pretty good and as I said, it was cute.
So yeah. Got to see all my cousins and what not from that side of my family. Fun stuff. I can definitely tell that two of my cousins go to tanning places regularly. They are both unnaturally brown for this time of year. *ick* I don't understand how people can do that. Its just makes them look unnatural. That and they wear so much make up, as if they are trying to look older than they really are. And it just doesn't look right. Ah well as I always tell my guy friends "Even I don't understand women and I am one."
Next weekend: To the Orwitz's house and more good food!

"You have no shoes on"

2007-03-28T23:19:00.000-05:00

I love the warm weather that we had. For the past two days I walked everywhere with no shoes on. It was awesomeness. Can't wait till it gets warm and stays warm. Then its no shoes and skirts until the fall. Wheee!
I had the SEM lab on Thursday. It was super fun. I liked using, as we called, the "super magnification". *magnified 2000 or so times* My favorite was the computer chip. The little things on it made me think of little dancing men. See.

Fun stuff. We also had another that looked like an alien landscape.
Hmm, lets see...what else happened since I last posted. Many many things. I got reelected as Physics club secretary. I played some LowLife, another RPG system. That was fun. Several friends came home on spring break. First was Vogel. *John for those of you who are wondering* We all went out for sushi and then over to Louis's house afterward. *we being me, Vogel, Zach, and Louis* It was the first time I was ever over at his house and it was a mess. Then the next week Blake was on break. And as it turned out my roommate went home both of the weekends that Blake was here. That was convenient. Stuff happened those weekends, like the St Pat's parade and much good corned beef eating, and Deadlands playing, and other stuff. Hehe. I think thats about it for now. Hopefully my next post won't be several weeks away.

Reading is good for you

2007-02-27T12:36:00.000-06:00

I have more books!!! Since I'm home I don't have much to do other than read. I had been rereading some of my books here, but last night when I was at Adam and Kat's house they lent me a bunch of books. So now I have 3 more Honor Harrington books to read and one about mobile cities. Yay. *happy dances* Told ya this post would be happier than the last one. *grin*

Sorry, ranting again

2007-02-24T17:15:00.000-06:00

As the title says I'm ranting again and I apologize. People don't want to hear me rant, but I need to say stuff or I tend to go crazier than I normally am, crazy in a bad way. So here goes the rant. I'm not sure how this started again but over the past week, maybe longer, my old feelings of loneliness have come creeping back. I don't know why or what triggered them but all I know is that it hurts and I don't like the direction these feelings take my thoughts. God, how I hate this feeling, the feeling that there is no one around who cares or of being the only one, the odd one out. It hurts. And it doesn't help that I don't even have Blake here to make me feel better and feel wanted and needed. But I always hear stories people tell of how they went out and did whatever over the weekend or on some night of the week and I just nod and think that I spent that same time sitting in my room on my computer or reading. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I just hope I can make these feelings go away again. I don't like feeling like this, I don't. *sigh* Oh well, whatever. Again sorry for ranting but I need to sometimes. I promise to post something happy next time.

People are weird

2007-02-23T19:07:00.000-06:00

Apparently some people I know have trouble reading. Before, and I guess a little in the beginning of this blog I also had a Xanga site (its like blogger but populated mainly by teens). Technically I still do but I never update it anymore. In my last Xanga I said I was moving all journals and what not to here. Now several people I know, who also have Xangas, ask me why I don't update my Xanga anymore. They especially do this when I mention something like me cutting my hair. Now if they had actually read my last Xanga post they would know why and to come here if they wanted to know what was going on in my life. This goes to show that some people don't actually read what I write. This excludes you, my 2 some times 3 readers. Cause I have actually seen you post comments that show that you read what I write or you respond to what I say in other ways. Now I am not saying anything bad or whatever about these people I am just making an observation on something that I have been seeing happen for at least 2 years now.

Ooh, look an update

2007-02-23T15:09:00.000-06:00

I think my poor blog is feeling neglected. I haven't updated it in awhile. So here is an update in the life of Alaina.
-I got flowers and chocolate from Blake on Valentines day.
-I finished winter term at Augie. Yay!
-I'm home now.
-The Deadlands campaign I'm in is getting interesting. Don't remember if I've mentioned this yet but our group has been sent on our big final quest, to stop this guy from becoming the fifth horseman. As started out on our quest we got help from somewhere very unexpected, the four horsemen them selves. Apparently they don't want anyone else encroach upon their power. So each of us has been touched by one of the horsemen, except Blake's character Willie, cause he wasn't there at the time. So we each have these special powers now. Mine are from War so that is fun. Then almost all of our characters died, again except Willie, and we all came back with a bunch of mutations. Now we are stuck in Carson City by I think a bad Doomsayer or something along those lines.
Hmmm, I think thats about it for now. I will probably update more some time later, like maybe Monday or Tuesday.

Good food and dancing

2007-02-09T22:56:00.000-06:00

Asian night was awesome. It was so much good food. And sushi...*drool*. Along with all this good food was entertainment. One of them was a belly dancer. Afterward she gave a small lesson. I learned that I'm really not coordinated. But I wanna learn how to belly dance now. *grin* Hehe, that would be fun.

Woot!

2007-02-03T11:24:00.000-06:00

I went to a release of the set Planar Chaos last night. It was a sealed tournament and I ended up with 3rd place!! Ben and Derrick together got 1st and 2nd and Dante got 6th (there were 8 people in the tournament). I'm so happy that I got 3rd. I've never placed that high in a tournament before. Usually I'm near the bottom. *happy dance* I won 3 packs of Planar Chaos, a pack of Coldsnap, and a life counter. It ended up being worth the $25 to enter the thing. And now I have enough good slivers to build a slivers deck. *dance* And just in case you were wondering, yes I was the only girl there.

Now we observe the animal in it's natual enviroment

2007-02-01T18:04:00.000-06:00

Apparently a friend of mine has been secretly studying for the past few days. She had to do a character study for a theater class of hers so she chose to do character study of me. After studying me she had to come to class in character as me. And there was someone in her class who guessed it was me, apparently I scare him. o.O I found this to be just hilarious. Now my friend's theater prof wants to meet me cause I sound like an interesting person. Fun, funness. My friend also chased the guy who is afraid of me around the classroom to hug him, she did this in character so he was trying to get away from her. *grin* Sounds like something I'd do.

Success!

2007-01-29T15:54:00.000-06:00

So last Thursday I did this physics lab where we had to try and make a hologram. Keyword there is try. We were given 6 glass plates that we had to expose to the laser and the object we wanted to make a hologram of. After that we had to process the plates and then we hung the plates up to dry. My partner and I were hoping for at least one to turn out and we got 3 to turn out! *happy dance* One of the things to turn out was my dragon necklace. I was hoping that one would turn out. The others were one of my d20's and a d10 (together), and the other was a very shiny pine cone. Fun, funness. Well thats about it. There really hasn't been much thats been going on here. Oh well. :)

Lots and lots of hair

2007-01-14T10:40:00.000-06:00

Yesterday was the first annual Augustana Snip and Shave, a fundraiser for this one cancer research thing and for Locks of Love. I went to it thinking that I would donate 10 inches of my hair cause then my hair would still be long. Well while I was there I made a decision, I didn't donate 10 inches of hair I donated closer to 20. So my hair has gone from below my waist long to just at my shoulders long. Its weird, cause I keep reaching to move my hair so I don't sit on it and whatnot and its not there. The reactions I'm getting from people are just priceless. The funniest has to be my friend Ryan who saw me last night and was sitting next to me for about 5 min and didn't notice. I even had my back to him at some points and still nothing. Then I hear this long gasp and the words "Oh my god your hair", he finally noticed. Hey now the Vandegraff generator should work on me, awesome. I will have to try that next time I can.

A weird phobia

2007-01-07T10:48:00.000-06:00

First the funny stuff before I begin to rant. The long awaited updated on the Deadlands campaign. We gamed last night at Dory's house, Ryan's girlfriend. She has CATS!!! Many, many cute and friendly cats, 7 to be exact. After much cat petting (one kitty fell asleep in my lap) and eating of good food we started the game. Our heroes have climbed to the top of the steel sky to chase down a big bad guy, I believe that it is a mob boss from before the blast. We are exploring the airport that is on top of the steel sky and we get in a gunfight with some of the thugs that are up there guarding the place. Adam and Ryan are able to dodge the grenade that is thrown at us and hide, I unfortunately fail the roll and get hit by the grenade but luckily I survive and am then captured. The guards don't kill me cause I'm a Junker and can be useful. So they take me to "The Boss". Adam and Ryan follow behind getting directions from my familiar that is with them. Well, I am taken to this office were you can feel pure evil just radiate from the door. I'm shoved inside and I meet "The Boss". Pure evil, he looks like Death and is impeccably dressed in nice shoes, a tie and armani (sp?) suit. And now for the fun part, I have to make a guts roll to see whether or not this scares me or if I am fine. I fail the roll. This means Kat gets to roll on this fun little table to see what happens to me. This can be anything from being uneasy to having a heart attack and dying. A couple of rolls later and I now have the hilarious major phobia of armani suits. We stopped at this point cause it was getting late. So next session we need to try and stop this guy from doing something really bad, which should be interesting since we were told that he can't be killed. I think it's so funny that my character now has a major phobia of armani suits. Thats it for now. More updates when something interesting happens.

Bye bye 2006

2007-01-01T19:27:00.000-06:00

2006 is gone and a new year is here. And now to reflect on things that happened in 2006. *holds a mirror up to 2006 to see what reflects and sees nothing* That didn't work lets try the serious approach now.
Note worthy things of 2006
-Dec 31/Jan 1: started 2006 with drinking
-May 18: 5 years with Blake
-July 4th weekend: Cornerstone - reconnecting with Sven and Athena and those at Camp 77
-June something to July something: was a part of the Squee's journey around the world
-sometime in July: helped Adam and Kat move, got the crap scared out of me from riding in the moving van.
-early Sept: start back at Augie
-Oct 28th: got to run the big telescope by myself at the Astronomy open house
-Nov 8th: transit of Mercury
-Dec 3: trip to Fermilab
-Dec 31/Jan 1: ended the old year with Blake, Adam and Kat and began it with these good friends :)
Things I hope to happen in 2007 (and some that will happen :))
-Go on Asia term
-Spend lots of time and have lots of fun with my friends
-Year 6 with Blake
-Go to Cornerstone and see Sven, Athena and Camp 77 people again
-Go to Flatcon
My resolution (lets see how well I keep it this year) : Quit worrying so much, ask for help more often, and work harder at my grades.

Sorry for all of you who wanted to see me post drunk. I wasn't that drunk last night so it wouldn't have been that entertaining. Maybe next time. ;)

I have finished the holiday race

2006-12-26T17:32:00.000-06:00

The Christmas holiday has come and past and everything went very well. Christmas Eve I went to church in the morning and sang, the choir sounded good. We had Nancy's son playing the trumpet during one of the hymns, it was nice. After that went to the other church with the rest of the family, then we went to the Johnson house for the rest of the night. The next morning I got woken up by Iris and Lilly and we went downstairs to open presents. Then went to the Orwitz house for dinner and more presents, then back home for an hour, then over the river into Iowa to the Straight house. Wheew, so much running around. Got to see all 4 sets of grandparents this Christmas, cause Grandma and Grandpa Engberg came down and stayed here for two days. Now for what I got this Christmas; clothes, new scarf and jacket*yay*, body spray/wash/lotion (no not all combined in one), candy, pajamas, and the first and second seasons of House *bought with Christmas money*. Twas a great Christmas all in all. Wish I could have sang in the 6 p.m. service at my church (we were singing the first song from the balcony) but I did have fun at Grandma's house.
Next update will be on or after New Year's. If I do update New Year's eve/day it might be entertaining.

And this is how we party

2006-12-23T01:00:00.000-06:00

So the physics club Christmas party was Thursday. Despite all the things that didn't go as planned, like our poor treasurer's car not working and the LN being all gone *gasp*, I think it went alright. We had pizza late and played Ants in the Pants (spongebob style), played this cool new laser game, and looked up all our houses on Google Earth. Well we look up all the houses that had good resolution and such. *grin* For the others we just sort of guessed. I had fun. Also got to see Vogel again. That was fun. Need to do more things with him and the others.
In other news, I am home again for break. Also I bought the first season of House today. *squee* And already Iris and Lilly are just as hooked as I am. :)

Dude, its a girl at a Magic tournament

2006-12-19T12:49:00.000-06:00

Friday I went to another Magic tournament. It was fun. Won two rounds out of 5, so not bad. Funny thing is that each time I'm at a Magic tournament, been to two so far, people seem to forget that I'm a girl. Its strange. At the first one Dante said something about the only girl tournament being married so Ben shouts down the table "Hey, Alaina, Dante forgot that you're a girl." Now at this last one Ben and Dante brought their girlfriends. At one point Ben says that they have lost the girls cause they were sleeping at one of the tables. I pipe up and say "what does that make me?", Ben replies with "your other" and Dante says "your not other your Alaina". Quite funny. I predict that at the next tournament someone will again forget that I am in fact a girl.
Next thing that happened this weekend is that Becca turned 18 on Saturday. She got a new haircut and color. She is now dark brown/red. She had a party at Osaka, this Japanese place out by South Park. Twas quite fun. I had sushi for the first time and loved it. *wants more sushi*
Well thats about it for now. I'll have another update after the physics club Christmas party.

How long is this going to continue?

2006-12-11T21:07:00.000-06:00

Once I begin thinking that the whole ordeal with my financial crap is over I get an email saying that it is not. Apparently Citibank has not received the signed promissory note for the loan I applied for. Now, I believe that I signed that note electronically when I filled out the application. My father, the cosigner, said that Citibank was going to send him the promissory note so that he could sign it. Now I don't know what is going on here but this is getting rediculus. I mean really. What more am I supposed to do in order to fix this? Hopefully I can get this cleared up in a day or two if not there will probably be a raging Alaina on the lose and that won't be pleasant for anyone most of all the loan people at Citibank.

Physics Party

2006-12-09T20:21:00.000-06:00

Today there was a physics party at Dr Seaglaf's house. It was super fun. We had a gigantic snowball fight. It was so fun. I love snowball fights, especially when I get to throw snowballs at my professors. After that we all went inside to warm up and dry off. I had so much snow stuck in my hair and I got it out by shaking my head like a dog. Got snow everywhere, including on Dr Vogel. :) The rest of the time was spent eating, talking and playing with the three Seaglaf boys. They are so cute and fun. A great time was had by all. We need to have more physics parties cause they are so much fun.

At long last...

2006-12-05T22:41:00.000-06:00

I'm finally registered for classes now! *happy dances around* Wheeeeeeeeeeee!

Here we go a fractaling...

2006-12-03T20:49:00.000-06:00

Yes, thats right I've entered in to another fractal contest. The theme for this contest is minimalism. This is difficult to create a fractal that is both simple and beautiful. But know how these contests work there will be several stunning pieces. If you want to look at all the entries here is thelink. And now for my piece, Simplicity. Wish me luck in this contest.

Ooh look at the strings

2006-12-03T18:56:00.000-06:00

Went to Fermi Lab today. That was fun. We were supposed to have 7 people go the it dropped to 6 and then only me and Dr Vogel showed up at the science building to go. Don't know why all the others decided not to go but they missed out. It was fun. There was a talk on string theory. I'm not sure how I feel about string theory yet. It seems like a way of simplifying and combining gravity and quantum but then again it requires so many new dimensions in order to work. That just seems like it would complicate things more. But I'm not a theorist in this area, actually not a theorist at all, so I don't know how it all works out. But it was still a good lecture and then getting a tour of Fermi itself was super cool. The place was actually very artistic, something I wasn't expecting. Turns out the person who designed the place was also an artist as well as a physicist (I'm not the only one out there then :)). Seeing the particle accelerators and such was fun. It was really really cool. Definitely want to go again sometime cause its just so cool. And they have Bison up there! You've got cool phyisicsy stuff and then you have Bison too, thats just awesome. And to all of you who didn't show up, tsk tsk, you should have been there.

WOOT!!

2006-12-01T16:36:00.000-06:00

HOODY HOO!!! The loan has been approved, my restriction has been lifted, and I don't have to move out!!!! All of this so last minute dramatic too. I'm super happy now. I need to celebrate some how. *squee!* Had to share this with yall. *dances off filled with glee*

Whats behind that door marked "Exit" in the Science building again?

2006-11-30T16:13:00.000-06:00

Turns out that every other Thursday this term I will basically live in the Science building. Those Thursdays are the days that I have Physics club (like this Thursday). I begin the day with a 7:30am Chem lab (ick), then Physics club during the lunch hour (free pizza!), then since there is no reason to walk all the way back to my dorm room for only about and hour and a half (its also cold outside) I just ended up staying in the science building till my physics lab at 2:30. The other Thursdays I will end up leaving the Science building for lunch and then I might go back or just go to my dorm depending on the time. But, yeah, Thursdays I'll live in the Science building. Not a bad thing except for the Chem lab.
Edit: Forgot to mention the important fact that I found a spoon in my coat pocket today thats been there for about a year. I know that all of you were just dying to know that. ;)

And now for something compleatly different...

2006-11-27T21:54:00.000-06:00

I really need to stop worrying. And now for something funny and weird. Have fun.
Ok, too much work to post an actual video from Youtube her ( I don't want to get a Youtube account just to post on video and then never use it again) so yall get a link to the creator of a game I play doing the Ninja Pirate Zombie Robot dance.

And now for round 2...

2006-11-26T17:26:00.000-06:00

Thats right winter term has begun. I picked up my grades from last term and I'm not happy. C's in all classes. Not what I was hoping for. I still haven't gotten the restriction on my registration lifted so I'm still not signed up for classes. I'm going to talk to the teachers that I have tomorrow and ask if I can still attend the classes until the loan comes through and I can register. This is not a good sign that winter term has begun and already I am stressed. I'm afraid too. I'm afraid of what will happen if the loan doesn't go through and I'm kicked out of Augie. Then what will I do? Well, I guess I will be a real starving artist then. Lets just hope everything works out then. *crosses fingers and prays*

Lookie, lookie

2006-11-25T16:43:00.000-06:00

It's official, I am now a starving artist. One of the new changes over at deviantArt is that everyone now has a standard prints account. And I have sat down today and have transformed a few of my wonderful pieces into prints. So now people can buy my stuff and feed me *puppy eyes*. There are currently 3 of my fractal pieces available for purchase: Big Bang, Phases of the Flower, and Gate to the Plane of Shadows. There will be more added for purchasing probably in the next few days. But this makes me happy. So go and see which pieces you like the most and tell me so I can make it into a print for you.

Thankfulness

2006-11-24T22:38:00.000-06:00

Since yesterday was Thanksgiving I have spent some time thinking about what I'm thankful for. And these are what I have come up with.
-My family: No matter how many times they frustrate me, make me angry/rage, or how many times I say I hate them, I still love them and am thankful for all their support through the years of my life.
-My friends: Whether they be new, old, out of touch or close, all of my friends have had an influence on my life and I am thankful for all of them. Most especially for Zach, Louis, Vogel, Lorena, and Emerald. All of these have had an extra impact on my life in helping me become who I am today.
-Blake: I saved him for last because I am most thankful for him. I am thankful for him always being there for me when I need him the most and for loving me.

Happy late Thanksgiving everyone!

The random update on random things

2006-11-22T10:44:00.000-06:00

First an update on the fractal contest I entered awhile back. I did not make it to the second round of judging but 10 great fractals did.
Update the second: the last gaming session. We ended up buying a car that session and I went about fixing it up. Also got to use my new shield power to create shields for the car and Ryan's character. We ended up not getting a customer to our PI service for a long time. When we finally did it was a woman wanting us to check on where her boyfriend was going at night. Well, we found that he wasn't cheating on her, but was instead cutting the g-ray cables. Thats bad, cause in this day those are the power cables and when they are cut release spirit energy (g-ray stands for ghost-ray). And then to end the session we learn that our boss was murdered so now we have two things to look into. Although I think they are connected. Oh I almost forgot. At the beginning of the session I finally got all my night terrors out of the way (one of my hinderences causes me to have night terrors if I fail a spirit roll). That was interesting. I dreamed I saw Stone, this really evil guy from the future who killed all the heros so the Horsemen could enter the world). Now that is creepy since my night terrors are slightly prophetic. I now wonder what we will run into in future sessions.
Update the third. Break has been going good. I like all the sleep that I've been getting and all the chances to play Torment. That is such an awesome and fun game.
Yup thats about it. Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!

Science is FUN!!

2006-11-17T11:20:00.000-06:00

Physics club was invited to Washington Elementary's math and science night that was last night. It was so fun. We did the Vandegraf generator, Faraday cage, and of course the liquid nitrogen demos. The little kids had so much fun watching us. Heck, we had a ton of fun too. It was just great. After we were done we had some liquid nitrogen leftover so we decided to do the soap bubbles demo for the kids that were left. It was great. I got a picture of the kids reaction. They loved it so much! What a great way to end the first term. :)

Attack of the Staplers!

2006-11-15T14:02:00.000-06:00

Took my physics final today. That actually went really well. There was only one question that I didn't know any parts of. There was something really pretty funny that happened when I turned this final in. I had to staple my extra sheets with the problems on them to the test. But in doing so I also stapled my hoodie/jacket thing that I wear to the test. So I had to pull my self off the test and restaple it. I had to try so hard to to burst out laughing there in the classroom. But as soon as I got out the door I just broke down laughing. It's so funny, I'm still giggling about it.

Alaina angry. Alaina SMASH!!!!!!

2006-11-14T14:52:00.000-06:00

GRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bloody hell. I get back from a quantum retake, a modern fiction final and turning in a paper for modern fiction and I'm greeted by an email from my grandmother. You may not think that is bad but then we get to the content of said letter. She heard that I lost the presidential scholarship and that I'm "pissing away my gift" and that I should stop spending so much time at my friends' house and get involved in activities here at Augie that will "will help further my goals". Goddamnit. I am involved in stuff here at Augie. I'm a part of the bloody Physics club, gamers club, as well as helping out at all physics and astronomy open houses. If that ain't helping with my major I don't know what will. I spend 1, read that ONE, night a week at Kat and Adam's house, and that is currently Saturday night. And yes I know I lost the goddamned scholarship. I don't need to be reminded by my grandmother. Goddamnit. I lost the fucking thing cause I failed one of my classes LAST YEAR. There I fucking said it. It was one class and it completely fucked me over. I can admit that. But because I failed one class last year winter term doesn't mean that I'm screwing around and screwing up this year. Sorry but this is really making me angry. I don't need my bloody family getting on my case for something that happened last year that they are now learning about. I've got enough stress with this being finals week anyway, I don't need more. Bah. Again sorry next post won't be so angry and ranty.

(another) Apocolypse averted

2006-11-12T10:59:00.000-06:00

So, yesterday's Deadlands game was fun. If you don't know what Deadlands is I will quickly explain. Deadlands is a post-apocalyptic role playing game. There are various types of undead and other horrors running around, as well as the four horsemen (they have taken over everything east of the Mississippi). This campaign is set in Junkyard, one of the few standing cities after the apocalypse 13 years earlier. Our group of heroes include an ex-soldier (played by Adam), a fairly new arrival the doctor/prostitute who has a destiny, so she can't die (played by Ryan), and me the Junker (think techno-shaman). We also technically have a fourth player (Blake) a very old militia man with bad eyes and ears (think Willy Nelson). We had just been evacuated out of Junkyard due to it being over run with Mainliners, a nasty type of undead that have needles for fingers and as the name suggest are druggies (the drug is human blood). Every person who is kill by them rises as one of them. So you can see how this is a problem. As we are stand around after being evacuated we hear that the team sent in to evacuate the hospital have not returned and can not be reached. Us being heroes immediately decide to go in there and get them out. So I persuade the militia man in charge to give us a few vehicles and militia men to go in there. We go in and after fighting off a group of the mainliners on the second floor we find a room full of survivors, 23 injured and 6 doctors. The situation doesn't look good. Only about 7 of the injured can walk and as we are thinking of a plan of getting them out we hear a thunk from the adjoining room that sounded like a ceiling tile falling and then the sound of climbing. We quickly decide to go with Adam's plan and I weld the second door shut so we can't have these things coming at us from behind as we leave. Once about half of the injured are out in the hall a hand full of these guys (it was an actual handful of d6's) break through the ceiling into the hallway. As the fight goes on out there there is another crack and two handfuls of the mainliners fall through the ceiling and into the room with me, 4 militia men and the rest of the injured. They kill one militia man and then all but two are compelled to begin begin swarming the fallen and getting there high off of his blood. At that point they are easy to pick off, one shot to the head and they are gone. But as we are about to begin picking them off we hear a cackle from above and we see the big main mainliner, who is actually a fearmonger (nasty critter that can only be killed by one thing), grinning down at us from the ceiling. Everyone except for one militia man (Willie) fails their guts check and runs from the room. Willie then makes a truly awesome head shot (hooray for rolling a nat 20 for location). The bullet just falls off. The fearmonger runs into the hall, completely by-passing Willie and proceeds t0 kill two more of our NPC's. He gets in a fight with Adam and Adam shoots him with what turns out to be the only thing that can kill him, a gun given to the fearmonger (before he became a fearmonger) by his father and the bullets that came with said .45. We get down to 1 of the special bullets (we had used a couple before and he dodged one this combat) and Adam is able to pull off an amazing shot to the head which kills the fearmonger. Hooray! One short battle on the first floor and we have successfully evacuated the remainder of the hospital, with no casualties other than militia men. Once the infestation of mainliners is cleared out a couple of weeks later we and a few others who also showed heroics during that time were rewarded. Life in Junkyard continues as normal. And now with the money we were rewarded with we can probably buy a van now so I can make it into a super car (yes my character can do such things).
Next session: rollplay heavy, hopefully no combat *yay!*

Ahh, a perfect day

2006-11-08T16:19:00.000-06:00

Today was an awesome day. It is so beautiful outside. It is nice enough that my physics class was held outside. *does a little dance* Today is also the transit of Mercury across the sun. Dr Carkner and Dr Reneke set up two telescopes outside with sun filters so that people could view it. It was so cool. There was even a sunspot on the sun as well at the time. It was awesome looking. I could see that it was darker in the middle and there were faint crackly lines around it. As I said before it was awesome.

It's fractalrific

2006-11-06T19:18:00.000-06:00

Just finished my entry for the fractal contest I told y'all about. And it can be found here, Gate to the Plane of Shadows. Lets hope it makes it past the first round of voting. Already the competition is pretty good. Someone made a really great one titled Dracula's Blood Magnified, which is just stunning.

Fun with trivia

2006-11-05T16:50:00.000-06:00

I went to the trivia night thing at the College Center. It was fun. It reminded me of the academic team days. There was also free candy on the table. If I ever go again my teammates may want to move the candy away from me. From all the candy I ate and the pop I drank I got a pretty good sugar high. Thus I began to throw the candy wrappers across the table at Cecilia and Nick. Fun fun, but I think next time I will go easy on the sugar. Afterwards Blake and I (did I mention he was home this weekend *dance*) went to Adam and Kat's house to play Deadlands. It was fun. I have the feeling that the next session will be really combat heavy. We might even kill big evil dude that is turning everyone into undead-needlely fingered monsters.

Random Update

2006-11-03T19:51:00.000-06:00

No Cthulhu playing on Halloween. Made me sad. Maybe another time. Might just break down and buy the system and run a game on my own. That would be interesting, me a game master. Hah, that'll be the day. And now moving on to... Hmm, I don't know. Still haven't gotten that bloody restriction lifted. So no registering for me yet. Well, yeah, thats about it. Except that I'm working on another fractal piece for a contest. Should be interesting seeing that the theme is gothy/dark with a hidden element. Hey maybe this time my piece will get to the second stage of voting. Let's hope. Although I will be up against people who have been doing this much longer than me but what the heck it will be fun.

Of telescopes and costumes

2006-10-30T18:13:00.000-06:00

This last Saturday was the Astronomy open house. It was fun. Too bad it was cloudy out. We were going to try to look at Comet Swan but we could barley see the moon most times. But I got to run the big 14in telescope by myself for most of the night. *jump up and down like an excited child* That made my weekend. And now for something completely different; Halloween costumes. My costume this year is Schroedinger's cat. Although I don't think that I will be going trick or treating this year. I most likely spend tomorrow night at Kat and Adam's house playing Call of Cthulhu (need to pick that system up at some point). But the most interesting, funny and innovative costume I've seen is the one that my professor Dr. Vogel was wearing today. She was all 6 flavors of quark. It was so funny. Made my day, that did. Well thats it for now. I'll tell y'all how the Call of Cthulhu game went. Silly Firefox 2 doesn't recognize Cthulhu. Must fix that.

Around we go again

2006-10-27T18:37:00.000-05:00

I'm putting off calling my mom. I know I shouldn't but I am. I don't want to cause I know it won't end well. But I need to if I want to register for next term. This is driving me crazy. So many little things are piling up against this bigger thing and its drowning me. I'll survive this whatever happens, but its going to hurt.
And now on to the weekend. The oh so boring weekend. The only bright spot will be the Astronomy open house. I love helping in an open house, whether it be physics club or astronomy. It makes me feel so good to see look on little kids faces as they learn something new in whatever demonstration I'm doing. That should brighten my weekend slightly. Wish Blake where coming home like he said he would, but guess what he's not. Oh well. Life goes on. Even if it crawls by its still going on.
I'm sorry. I said I wouldn't rant here anymore but I need to vent sometimes or it all piles up inside and hurts worse. This will hopefully be the last ranty post for a long time. Oh, who am I kidding no one reads this anyway. But I'll still try not to get too depressing.

Light and other weekend activities

2006-10-23T23:28:00.000-05:00

Went to Western today with physics club. We went to see a talk about stopping light. 'Twas quite interesting. We will see how practical it becomes in the future. Also this weekend my church had a big celebration for our organist. She has been with the church for 25 years. So we had a big party with many people playing alsorts of music and such with cake afterward. The chior sang two songs. We sounded good. Especialy on the first song. I love singing the high notes, wish we sang more songs with notes like that in them. Fun fun.

Not again

2006-10-19T18:53:00.000-05:00

This is not good. Again I'm getting doubts as to whether or not I will be able to come back to college after this term. The last time this happened was in the summer and they are back now. The thing is I don't know if I will have enough to pay for tuiton (all because I'm a royal fuck up and screwed up last year). I don't want to go back home. I don't. All the stress that I have from college is nothing compared to what I get at home. This is bad. Sign up for next term's classes is comeing up real soon and I don't know what I'm going to do. Things like this make me feel like such a failure. This is makeing old bad thoughts come back, thoughts I buried deep and don't want to come back. I just hope that whatever happens I won't go down that path again. I hope I can come back for the winter term. I pray that I can. God, I hope I come back.

The Boat!

2006-10-14T12:56:00.000-05:00

The cardboard boat race was today. It was awesome, fun and oh so cold. The race this year was set up in brackets. We were in the first bracket and so raced first. We won the first round hands down. One of the boats in that first round had a cardboard spear that they threw at us as we passes them :) fun. The next round of races were the semi-finals. We were so close to winning that round. The other team only beat us by a little. So close. It was fun though and our oars did not fail us! We just couldn't row fast enough. Next time, next time. I put the boat out to dry in front of the Science building in case we want to keep it. Although next year we sould build a new boat, since this one has seen better days. Sara and I also had our picture taken, with the boat, by someone from the Observer so hopefuly we will be in the next issue of it. *crosses fingers* All in all it was great. We could have had more support from our fellow physics people though. I don't know where they all were but they missed out on a great race and I won't let them live it down.

My weekend...a few days late...oh and a boat

2006-10-11T21:45:00.000-05:00

Well, I'm finaly getting around to telling about my weekend. I can sum it up in word, amazing. Friday Blake came home and we went out to Scott community park for a bonfire/cookout with Adam, Kat, Ryan, and Dory. It was fun even though Ryan, who was supposed to be in charge of the event, forgot several things, like hotdog sticks. But it was fun anyway. After that Blake and I came back here and he spent the night, for the first time ever in 5 years. And now that I have been spoiled I don't like sleeping with out him. :) Saturday was even better. We went to go begin building the Physics boat but the room was locked so we reschedualed for Sunday. Ah, and then the rest of Saturday started. I will say no more except that it was good. Sunday was boat working. That was fun. Glued three of my toes together and my hand to the glue spreader. Good times, good times. The boat is almost done. We'll see how it holds up. It's not the boat I'm worried about, its the oars. They were the only downfall last year and we are useing a new design this year. So lets hope it works.

Dude, Light Brite

2006-09-27T22:15:00.000-05:00

Wow, this is the craziest thing I've seen in a while. A very good explination of a life of a star and the resulting supernova useing only light brite. Check it out. Its so cool.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8MHb6_35XJM

Edit: Grrraaa, stupid blogger won't insert the link when I use the insert link button thing. *shakes fist* Curse you blogger. You and your makeing me figure this out and do it manually.

Superman!

2006-09-24T18:21:00.000-05:00

Went and saw Superman at the Imax with physics club today. Pure awesomeness. There 4 parts that were in 3-D. The one part that I wish was in 3-D was the beginning where you are flying through space. Good god if that were in 3-D...

Blake was home this weekend and I kidnapped him for Saturday. It was a good day. Later that night we went to Adam and Kat's place and watched some movies with them and Ryan and Dory. It was great. I ended up getting two new movies when we went out to rent the movies, V for Vendetta and Aeon Flux. Good stuff. We watched those two and Benchwarmers. Benchwarmers was ok, it had its funny moments.

Also this weekend I have created the fractal that I am most proud of. And here it is...
If you would like to see it in all its full size glory you can go here http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/40236239/. That is all for now. I will be back at some later date with more updates.

People go "Whaa?"

2006-09-21T20:27:00.000-05:00

People always ask what my favorite tv show is or if I watch [insert random tv show here]. I always answer back that I don't watch tv. Everyone gives me a look like "Whaa? Is she crazy?" They ask what I do then. I read, I play games, watch movies, draw, and play on the computer. This seems to baffle people. Some, like my current roommate, can't live without the tv being on. I find it annoying at best. My roommate can't beleive that I don't watch girly shows and movies. She wants to educate me in them now. *ick* I don't watch girly movies cause they are stupid. I like movies with more plot than "how do I find a boyfriend" or "how do I get rid of a boyfriend". I like epic battles, cool fight scenes, fantasy/scifi stories, plot that I can sink my teeth into. Ah, I be such a nerd. But I like it. Well that be enough for now.

Oh, school update, almost forgot. Not much has happened. I think I'm going to go crazy trying to run gamer's club and help run physics club. I now play laser tag Friday nights out on the quad. It's quite fun. Especialy when the drunks wander by us and wonder loudly why we are running around with laser guns. Quite entertaining.

Wow

2006-09-14T18:52:00.000-05:00

Wow, I really let this go by the wayside. Well, that shall be fixed now. I will try and pay more attention to my little blog. I will also try not to get all ranty here either. All very ranty past post that I did will be deleated because seeing them is depressing. Nothing much has gone on with me. Will post stuff latter.

yay it worked

2006-04-05T22:22:00.001-05:00

So, the eggs hatched and it all worked out. So now for More Eggs!!

Ooh eggses

2006-03-27T18:53:00.000-06:00

Yay

2006-02-19T19:03:00.000-06:00

Well, Valentine's day wasn't as bad as I thought. I got a bunch of carnations from Blake. He came home this weekend so all was good. I've got finals this next week. Ick. Well, lets hope that I do well on them.

Why

2005-11-04T20:28:00.000-06:00

Why do things happen as they do? My cat Bo died Wednesday. I miss him terribly. He was my best friend. I could talk to him and he would listen. He was always there for me. When I was feeling bad he would come to me and comfort me. He was so loveing. I miss him and want him back. But he is gone and there is nothing I can do to change that, to get my friend back.

Why is it that I always seem and feel like I am forgoten? A friend decides to have some event or go do something and I learn about it after the fact. Or I am told that it will happen but never when or where. Afterwards people are always like "You should have been there" or "Why weren't you there", and all I can do is shrug and say I was never told. Yes, there have been many things that I have gone too, but the number of things that I have not far out weight them. My friends forgett to tell me they are going to dinner or think that the other will tell me that they are going. Thanks, just what I want, to eat dinner by my self. Sure all of my friends have know each other since grade school and I have only known them since 8th grade. So I just shouldn't let it get to me that they don't do as much stuff with me. But it still hurts a bit. It feels like I'm back in gym class and teams are being picked, I was always picked last. Again it feels like I am being picked last but this time as a friend and not a team member. When ever this comes up they always say "lets do stuff" or "you do plenty with us" or "stop your coplaining" or "why don't you plan stuff" or "I want to do stuff with you but I never do". Now that makes me feel so much better(can't you hear the sarcasim).
Now I highly doubt that any of my friends, with the exception of one, will ever read this. And if they do they will probably just think "there she goes again", but oh well that is what they can think. I don't yell at them for writing about what they feel at any given time, so they shouldn't complain about me.

By the way I made the picture. I love you Bo and I miss you.

Promisses and time

2005-10-27T23:03:00.000-05:00

People make promisses all the time. Some mean something others mean nothing. They can be kept or broken. Some promisses are fufilled in a short time, others take years before they are fufilled. What can one do while waiting for a promiss like this to come to pass? All one can do is wait. Whether the wait be an hour or several years.
Slow so slow. Time passes me by. Speeding up on ocasion to make a few hours seem like a few minuts. There are times I want time to go slow to stop even. But it goes by so quickly. There are times that I want time to speed up so that waiting for things to happen won't take so long. But time crawls by at a snails pace.
Life seems to be made up of waiting for what you want and getting what you want and having it last a precious moment.

testing

2005-10-25T14:02:00.000-05:00

This is a test to see how this works. Rants and other fun stuff shall happen latter.