Why

Why do things happen as they do? My cat Bo died Wednesday. I miss him terribly. He was my best friend. I could talk to him and he would listen. He was always there for me. When I was feeling bad he would come to me and comfort me. He was so loveing. I miss him and want him back. But he is gone and there is nothing I can do to change that, to get my friend back.

Why is it that I always seem and feel like I am forgoten? A friend decides to have some event or go do something and I learn about it after the fact. Or I am told that it will happen but never when or where. Afterwards people are always like "You should have been there" or "Why weren't you there", and all I can do is shrug and say I was never told. Yes, there have been many things that I have gone too, but the number of things that I have not far out weight them. My friends forgett to tell me they are going to dinner or think that the other will tell me that they are going. Thanks, just what I want, to eat dinner by my self. Sure all of my friends have know each other since grade school and I have only known them since 8th grade. So I just shouldn't let it get to me that they don't do as much stuff with me. But it still hurts a bit. It feels like I'm back in gym class and teams are being picked, I was always picked last. Again it feels like I am being picked last but this time as a friend and not a team member. When ever this comes up they always say "lets do stuff" or "you do plenty with us" or "stop your coplaining" or "why don't you plan stuff" or "I want to do stuff with you but I never do". Now that makes me feel so much better(can't you hear the sarcasim).
Now I highly doubt that any of my friends, with the exception of one, will ever read this. And if they do they will probably just think "there she goes again", but oh well that is what they can think. I don't yell at them for writing about what they feel at any given time, so they shouldn't complain about me.

By the way I made the picture. I love you Bo and I miss you.