Not again

This is not good. Again I'm getting doubts as to whether or not I will be able to come back to college after this term. The last time this happened was in the summer and they are back now. The thing is I don't know if I will have enough to pay for tuiton (all because I'm a royal fuck up and screwed up last year). I don't want to go back home. I don't. All the stress that I have from college is nothing compared to what I get at home. This is bad. Sign up for next term's classes is comeing up real soon and I don't know what I'm going to do. Things like this make me feel like such a failure. This is makeing old bad thoughts come back, thoughts I buried deep and don't want to come back. I just hope that whatever happens I won't go down that path again. I hope I can come back for the winter term. I pray that I can. God, I hope I come back.